my first mother's day

While last year I semi-celebrated Mother's Day as a mama, I'm counting this year as my first official Mother's Day. Yes I was pregnant and technically a mother but now I have almost an entire year's experience caring for a growing infant so I think it's official. It really hadn't hit me until yesterday when I wished two of my friend's a happy mother's day and they wished it to me as well. It was probably the first time I've noticed saying it to people my own age. Not saying "Tell your mom 'happy mother's day' for me!" or saying it to "older" women. I guess that means I'm getting older! If you would have told me two years ago that I would have almost one year old now, I would have told you that you were smoking crack. To put it quite elegantly. As far fetched as it would have seemed then, it feels so completely natural and correct now. This is how my life is supposed to be. I don't really believe in fate, but I do believe that everything happens for a reason. When I found out I was pregnant in November 2009, I felt overwhelming anxiety. "This isn't the right time." "We aren't married yet." "I wanted to wait a few more years." "We aren't ready yet." But the day I saw my baby boy's face for the first time, I knew that I was ready. I knew that we, as a family, were ready. I couldn't have been more ready. Charles and JC are the best things that have ever happened to me and I feel so blessed that I get to spend my first and every Mother's Day to come with them. Happy Mother's Day to all the mama's out there!! I'm so happy to be joining the ranks!

And here is a little video of JC today, giving kisses to some of his favorite people/animals and showing off his mad standing skillz.